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Special Hell
03:36
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What is the new bad news today?
I’d take your word for it but I learned
You can’t trust what people say
I need to break ground on the better me
So I’m gonna pull myself apart at the seams
Yeah I took a long hard look at myself
Now I’m down in my special hell
I’m going down to my special hell
I gave up coffee cause I read
You shouldn’t drink something
That amplifies your existential dread
I’d give up all the things that help me sleep
Let the insomnia take me
Yeah I took a long hard look at myself
Now I’m down in my special hell
I’m going down to my special hell
Every hour count ʻem up
I’ve been thinking too damn much
I’m spinning out
Profound you better write this down
Cause its better than it sounds
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I’ve been having doubts about myself
Cant help looking at everyone else
My opinion cuts me down to size
Happens all the time
Oh no, it’s not me
But I’ve got to get this off my chest
Oh no, you’ll say
Super ordinary unimpressed
I’m searching all I’ve ever known
With a fine tooth comb hoping I didn’t steal
Potential is so misleading
How do you tell if it’s fake or real?
Oh no, it’s not me
But I’ve got to get this off my chest
Oh no, they’ll say
Super ordinary unimpressed
Sabotaging my own success
But I’m doing my best
Dreaming of the day
I’ll finally earn the prize
ripping off the sheets to find a bed of lies
Maybe I’ll find answers
When I close my eyes
I’m hugging tight to purpose
Wrap my arms around you
Letting go of worthless
I’ve got to see it through
Stop me now before I change my mind
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3. |
Autonomy
03:17
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Patterns all around me basic geometry
everything connects in one straight line
People that I love are shapes put together
And intertwined
I could make it up as I go along
Or I'll find it's set in stone
Whatever it is, I'm gonna make it anyway
Whatever it is, I'm not alone
Oh I've been asking myself what's the reason why
If these choices are all mine then why am I surprised?
I've been thinking about my own autonomy
Is it real or just pretend
All I know is I'm trying to build a better me
But I can’t make a decision
Everything can fall to pieces right in front of me
Like weight cut from a cable
If symmetry exists to make it balance out
Why don’t I feel stable
Oh I've been asking myself would I realize
If we don’t control our lives
Would I be so surprised
I've been thinking about my own autonomy
Is it real or just pretend
All I know is I'm trying to build a better me
But I can’t make a decision
Everyone feels emptiness, and sometimes helpless
It’ll be all right
What if we have it wrong
What if it’s like a song played by a symphony
With words that comfort me and make me
Think I could believe them
I've been thinking about my own autonomy
Is it real or just pretend
All I know is I'm trying to build a better me
But I can’t make a decision
Is it real
All I know is I’m staring right in front of me
And I can’t make a decision
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The Bigger Picture
02:57
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Sometimes I like to pretend
there’s some universal pattern
That explains how we fit in
Not a blueprint, or the guidelines.
I’m not asking for an answer
I just need some kind of sign
The things I stress about,
Starting now I’ll try to see the bigger picture
A star projecting light
Every night I know you see it crystal clear
But it’s too big to think about
Pulling off the stems to make some room
You can dig up your bad habits
But make sure you get the roots
The worry we endure
Let it go cause it’s all out your control
Your eyes reflect the light
What a sight to see more meaning in your role
But it’s too big to think about
What the universe is all about
Its too late to wonder why
Or ask yourself to uncover
The true meaning of your life
Sometimes I like to pretend that
There’s some universal pattern
That explains how I fit in
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Life In Pictures
02:01
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Maybe I’m not that special
Or maybe the plans fell through
I could crawl into my bed
And turn off the lights
And wake up as someone new
Slow down
I’m getting ahead of myself again
I’m trying to say
I’d just like you to stay
Maybe you’d like that too
A life in pictures passes by
How could I know better
I was only twenty five
I can’t help myself I have to try
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New Queen
03:25
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Who built this mess? Where is the architect?
Cause I’m blazing trails
But I can’t keep ‘em on fire, who’s coming next?
Makes no difference what you’ve won
Cause it’s all been said and done
History remains unchanged
Watch how quickly you’re erased
They’ll take you off the page
Wish I could picture what it’s like at the top
Respect and admired, your new queen
I’m breaking the habit of being something I’m not
Cause I am the female that the future forgot
Did you look forward to a better time?
When they can’t profit off your place in line
Did you cut ties? And take some time
To find yourself some piece of mind
I’m fading, just like the ones before me
Cant save me, I’m fading
Maybe it’s not that different
The dissonance of ambition
And making your own decisions
Maybe it’s not that different
Making sense of it
Wish I could picture what it’s like at the top
Respect and admired, your new queen
I’m breaking the habit of being something I’m not
Cause I am the female that the future forgot
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Short & Sweet
02:08
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I’ll keep this short and sweet
Cause I’m running out of steam
I’m starting to come down, I know I can’t stop now
Cause I can clearly see
You are a bright star when the darkness
Swallows me
You make the cosmic void a little less empty
I’m doing my best to write (So many pages)
These words but I can’t describe
(I’m never getting it right)
Like traffic and weather we belong together
Singing songs just to pass the time
You are like oxygen when my lungs feel heavy
You make the cosmic void a little less empty
I can count on you to make the sad parts less sad
You stop the sting a little
I can count on you to make the bad parts less bad
When everything’s impossible
When all my hopeless thoughts are just too much
At least I got you
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8. |
Hey Friend
03:16
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It’s the same old story
Happens every time I’m stepping out of the door
As the morning glories blossom
They remind me what the senses are for
That sweet spring air it left me reflecting on my life
As I’m strolling on the street, head down,
I wish that somebody had said
Hey friend there’s something that I want you to know
We’re all the same batch of molecules trying to grow
There’s no use in carrying the weight of the world
There’s no use worrying
In the afternoon at half past two I saw you pacing in distress
It’s a chemical reaction making concrete out of your regrets
Sat down on a bench and frowned thinking what lies ahead
Now I’m strolling past not looking back
I wish that I had said
Hey friend there’s something that I need you to know
We’re all the same batch of molecules trying to grow
There’s no use in carrying the weight of the world
There’s no use, no use
I know the hardest conversations
Are when you say what you really mean
I’m trying to help myself get out of my head
And say what I need to say
When I think of all the words I wasted
Somehow I never make sense of it
I’m gonna start right now
Figure it out, maybe I’ll think to say
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Homesick Hearts
02:49
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I’m built up
Just to be sold out
A sad song
Another goddamn let down
I’ve been making deals with myself
Promises that I intend to keep
I’ve been on the edge for weeks
We left town, trying to track the sun down
Let’s head south
Eternal summer
I’ve been second guessing how I feel
I’m addicted to a simple life
Complicated by the secrets we hide
Hang on, hang on
Send a letter to my homesick heart
Grab my pen still half asleep
I couldn’t make out muffled speech
Flipped to a new page and wrote your name
Hours later I’m convinced that every syllable was spent
Reminding you that everything’s ok
And we’re all the same
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I Can See You Dancing
03:31
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I Can See You Dancing
Believe me when I say it’s true
I did everything you asked me to do
Oh I can be nostalgic too
Alone with my stage fright standing in the spot light
Why couldn’t I see it through
It was make it or break and I had all the fractures
Everything I wish I knew
Cause making the change was harder than I gathered
I can see you dancing, they said you were good
Broken mirrors shatter, the faces obscured
If I could do it over, trust me I would
I’d do it all again
Years are flying by. I’ll find another way to pass my time
Can’t be the only, can’t be the only way
I’ve made an impression
I can see you dancing, they said you were good
Broken mirrors shatter, the faces obscured
If I could do it over, trust me I would
I’d do it all again
A dream just doesn’t compare
When you’ve given all you had to give up it’s not fair
I can see you dancing, they said you were good
Broken mirrors shatter, the faces obscured
If I could do it over, trust me I would
I’d do it all again
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Kick Rocks
03:46
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Every star will fall eventually, illuminate the heavens
I’ve been searching for that part of me that’s not afraid to fall
Won’t go no matter the height, scaring myself
It’s like a part of me dies
Kickin rocks to kill the time
It’s the flutter of the butterflies. I won’t let them define me
If I hold my breath and close my eyes, I’m fine.
Promise you won’t let go
Won’t go no matter the height, scaring myself
It’s like a part of me dies
Kickin rocks to kill the time
I’m holding on for dear life, saving myself
Won’t be the last time I try telling lies to trick my mind
I’ve got a feeling going down my spine
It wraps me up tight won’t let me unwind
I found my courage for the very first time
Untangled those ropes and started to climb
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